recap on summer;

Since i already get my hands on this blog, why dont i just continue with some stuff during summer. {Disc: Rather than going home i spent a summer here!}Can't believe it, I already passed a whole season in this country! 

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certain places and stories would have a special post in the future!

So, im writing based on memory because i literally have no written records of this. first, i got myself a part-time job. Hell yeah my first part time job ever. Currently am working at this one trick art museum a station away from my house. How do I get it. Honestly, it all began when we(my housemate and a friend and I)were walking back from this hari raya party we had at this place we rent. And during that time, I guess we were talking about part-time? And this friend talked about his part-time job. And i told em i wanted to work to but I am afraid of the people and the new place and everything. They kinda told me to just go for it, the people are nice. So, on the same night i log in into this app.

(Yeah japan has this app to look for a part time job, legit) 

-and randomly just apply to 4-5? part time job, ever so impulsively. Then two, maybe three job places, but i didn't answer one of em on accident, phoned me. I answer two, went to interview for one, because the second call i got, i was in starbucks having a mental breakdown after done interview-ing for the first call. Got accepted on the same day. Yeah, here I am now, ever so randomly, ever so me, ending up on foreign place, ever so lonely. There's A LOOT that happened related to my and my part time job but lets save that for another post.

second, went to a random trip. flowers & abandoned town! So, on this random day, a friend asked me. Or tell? me or probably we were just having a random talk, about this sunflower field. Then, we end up just go for it. First, i was introduced to this magnificent aesthetic of this small what look like an abandoned town. Took a lot of pictures, it was really nice there. Spent about an hour or two there, wandering around and sitting by the man-made lake there. Then, we left. I would like to talk more but again that deserved another post.

here a snapshot of little shops in front of the lake

Next, a sunflower field. dead/dying sunflower field. It was somewhere near mount fuji. Before the field took a wrong bus and ended up by the road side but it was all good. It let me know one thing, there are soo many things around mount fuji. Including the flower field. Anyway, we came late lol. There are time where flowers bloom and wilt. So, by the time we went there it was already on the next field. Waiting to be demolished by this big white tractor.

here marks the entrance of the second field lmao. basically all the flowers in this field are dying.

Anyway, not all of em are gone, there are one or maybe two left standing; sincerely thank you. Shout out to those sunflowers who now probably resting in peace in cold lands of this upcoming winter. 

 this one reminds me of Forks;in twilight for some reasons, prolly the trees. 

took this randomly by the zinnia field. 

third, roller coasters & death! Fuji-Q! Which reminds me back in my depressing days in college; i used to have this desire where I'd be like "Later in japan if i am ever stressed because of tests and examination, I'd go ride the roller coaster". Did i not regret that. Again, this was an expensive impulsive plan but the near death experience is, i would not word it as worth it? But is something new. Never ride any roller coaster before. And my first one is this devil that goes by the name of ええじゃないか (ae-janaika) which hold two certificates from the Guinness world record. Mid-air, i could not breathe. Or worst, scream. Things i learned so far, when you ride a roller coaster, scream. It is less depressing that way.

Ghost house. The mental hospital. Three from five/six of us went in, including me. The settings were really incredible. There are a lot of things, and it is a big building, we even got tired walking, hand in hands. If you ever see it on running man, I was told there are lots of 'ghost' there but we only met 3? Yeah, they might have put extras on the show for impact. It wasn't that scary, it was just zombies. But the mood and how they set the place up is fantastic. If a malay ghost is paired up with this setting i would have nightmare for the rest of my life. 

All in all it was a great time. Summer in tokyo was hot. The temperature is definitely higher than malaysia. Malaysia is hot too, but this hot is a little bit different. If i am to word it right, in home country it is hot but there are certain moment where the wind blows and there is this certain smell to it, might be the smell of trees or food from the food stalls that might be nearby. And in that moment when the wind blows, it gets kinda cool and breezy, feels calming. Here, they don't have that. At least in my place. :\  So thats all i got for summer recap. Now that i experienced summer i kind of miss it. It is autumn now, it is getting cold inside and outside. As i am of now writing in my rented apartment sipping some coffee sitting on this icy cold floor. Currently 1°C. Missing home.

Anyway, imma start updating everything from now. See you soon, ciao!

art.

To be honest, sometimes i really hate art. And myself because of it. I always asked myself why do i have to like drawing and painting and all this shit. Why can't i just be like other people liking normal everyday things and mingle around. Why do I like sitting all alone in my room enjoying my own solidarity? Why i have to get involved in this art shit. Other people do maths science business, likes going out, having friends, taking pictures, having meal together and im with this shit. And no one gets me. My parent doesnt get me.

And if im normal like the others, Id probably be a little bit smart, some friends, and a clearer future.

I have always thought that it is a phase. i mean i like, have interest on a lot of things. Back then, i used to think that. Maybe in the future I'd be having a conversation and saying things like

"I used to draw, paint back then"

But then i look back, I pick up graphic design, painting sketchbooks all that since i was 12. I am 21 now. Shits been 9 years. I still am doing the same thing now, if not same i just fucking upgraded my shit. From A4 paper to a fucking canvas.

Anyway the picture above indicate that i am currently reading this book of Van Gogh's painting and his life works. That's the Wood Gatherers in The Snow painting i believe. My favorite part of it is the sun set behind or sun rise? I don't remember. But yeah, they are having this exhibition in Tokyo of him and i want to go, but im not even halfway through the book because it is thickk lol. Im afraid going would give me some sort of spoiler or something you know. I think im going anyway tho, on my birthday i supposed. But yeah till then.

(I know they are a lot of things to update and kinda want to show some pictures too. Besides, i like reading things from the past. I hope I have more やる気 to do it. )