random thoughts;

1. If you'd asked me what im made up of, i would say there are these two major parts of me. Say, each of this part get to name each other, one side would be called too-overly-dramatic-metaphor-shit-side and another one is just-meme-side. I would say my brain hypothetically is divided exactly into this two parts. So basically they contradict each other right, one seemed serious and another one is more laid back. And since all of this is just in my head thingy, it would prevent me to do something. You would say it is just protective mechanism you know, so that I would not say something stupid, or too serious. Or simply, i just worry too much. And i wish less of any of this part to be treated lightly. Like you know enjoy the fun me, and laugh at my jokes, and also take my words seriously.

2.  Definitely, this has been on my mind recently, or i just discovered of this 'truth' recently, since you know being in quarantine makes you think, that i  sounded angry and that's annoying. And why is that highlighted because i think that is probably (well after all this year i think obviously) i got less friends. And have you ever been 'diagnosed with loneliness and depression as a part of your personality? Like i mean imagine reading your personality traits and found out that 'lone wolf' & 'easily depressed' is one of the traits, like imagine. On top of that, i sounded angry. I just realized sometimes, when i said things and people responded as if i was being angry with them. It probably has something to do with the tone of my voice. I don't mean it, definitely not angry at all. And if i am right this happened long time ago too, subconsciously considering i've only realized this by now . People esp the one who does not know me personally dislike dealing with me. Yeah well, i'd hate to have a conversation with someone who sounded angry too.

3. Anime.
 I've watch anime this past weeks. Last night, i even stayed up watching a whole season of this anime. I never liked anime. I don't hate them I watch some of them but very little. But not to the point that I would identify myself as someone who watch anime. And this was long ago, high school up until recently. I do like them better now. I just wonder maybe that is because i understand the language now so it just much better? Nevertheless liking them now isn't a bad thing. Might be a chance for me to start learning japanese from the bottom of my heart. For real for real, never liked the language.